Divalicious Life

guan yin ma bdae

2006-11-09T23:47:00.000-08:00

was t0ld by xia0ai t0day was GUAN YIN MA birthday. =) asked mum al0ng t0 g0 bugis de "FOUR HORSE R0AD". =X i dun0 h0w t0 call there la. had my ge0g pp t0day. was quite ok f0r me. =) finished at 3.30 then rush bac h0me t0 change. called mum and she's on the way back h0me t0o. then prepare finish was alm0st 5. faster went out heng stil haben cl0se yet. al0t of dev0tees went there and pray. i prayed f0r BABY's safety, myself and f0r my frens t0o. =) then went t0 take s0me ping an fu f0r myself, DEAR and frens. after that i g0 sim lim find WAYNE. on e way saw xia0ai. she went with her fren t0o. =D

find WAYNE, in e end kena d sia0. -_- nvm, then pei him g0 eat le then g0 bac, kena d sia0 again. zita0 paiseh! =/ hahs! then tel him i g0 off 1st. was damn hungry. called mum n sis t0 meet them. then went t0 ic0n t0 find my aiai,KIM. =DD at 1st, th0ught she n0t w0rking c0s never see her. scarly, saw her serving cust0mer. i smile smile t0 her. s0o happy t0 see her! =D give her BIG hugs. ^^ sigh* dun hv my aiai pic. =/ she's my pretty ger ok?! LOL!! give her the ping an fu. c0s t0t g0ing bugis, then sun bian pray f0r her t0o. =D she like s0 happy leh. hahs! chatted with her f0r awhile then g0 le, c0s hungry wana eat. =X
t0 AIAI: i really really wana meet u g0 out ok?! find time f0r DAPHY pls.. LOL!" misses~

then went nearby ic0n eat. my t0opit becs. she called and say...
becs: "kuan, wher r u? i at ur h0se d0wnstairs le." i STUNNED!!
me: "huh? u at there d0 wt?"
becs: "g0 ur h0use study la.."
me(i was lik, wth?! last min??) : " th0ught u say aftern0on will c0nfirm with me, u nv call me then nw u zita0 at my h0use d0wnstairs le."
becs: "hee."

argh! wana slap her. then me was like faster eat my dinner and chi0ng back h0me. -_- she's always s0 blur. hah!
then we study maths. end up eating, chatting. nv study and i ended up hre bl0gging. =X

well, im having m0od swings recently, and i flare up very easily. =( always give attitudE lidt leh. sians~ BABY was like putting up with me f0r th0se attitudEs. s0rry. he say" i n0e u m0od n0 g0od, i nv blame u. dun attitudE le okies?" felt guilty la. hais~

well, NIGHTS. =D

exams peri0d

2006-11-09T01:57:00.000-08:00

s0o0oo l0ng nv cum update le. hahs`! miSsx my bl0g. =) actually sh0uld be studying. in the end is g0 out play and slack. WTH right?! never mind. then i dun even b0ther t0 open my b0oks and revise. OMG! h0w can this be. i guess im the laziest ger ever la. DIE DIE~ =/ n0w is exams peri0d. i still like s0 relax. there's s0mething seri0usly wr0ng with me le. DEAD! hah! but nvm, i g0t prepared t0 fail le. th0u its disapp0inting. bt n0 ch0ice. =( i've s0me h0w l0st interest in study le. dun say all these le.

here are s0me recent updates.

ya, my BABY went in ns le. hah`! b0tak b0tak! bt cute. wana take ph0t0 he dun let me take. d0ts la. he shyshy na. =) well, last week he b0ok out and i acc0mpanied him t0 his c0usin's wedding dinner. =D im lazy t0 say out e details. bt i enj0yed. enj0yed evry m0ment with him. he's always s0 sweet. yeahs~ anyway, he will be b0oking out in a few m0re days. l0oking f0rward t0 it. lalala~

after a few m0re papers and im free`!!! OMG! fucking happy. =DD there's s0 much thingy i wana buy. bt n0 $$. and by e way, my pr0m nite is g0na c0st me a b0mb. =( g0t l0ads of plans this m0nths. gdgd! n i wana find j0b s0on. g0t $$, and can buy e things i wan. yeahhs`!

s0 sleep le. nites. =D bl0g again s0on.

2006-10-27T15:11:00.000-07:00

t0day is the 2nd day baby in camp. he was full of c0mplaints yesterday. i tink he enj0yed t00 much outside le, that's why he cann0t stand the life inside. hais~ pls bear with it baby, endure f0r awhile and i believed you will s0on get used t0 it. the way he c0mplained made me heart pain la. =( sians~ life was n0rmal f0r me. im kinda tired of my life n0w. O lvls are jus ard the c0rner and can u believed that im stil slacking n0w? GOSH~ h0w i wish Olvl end faster`! and i w0nt b s0 stressed. tell myself once this over, i'll b able t0 enj0y le. s0 f0r n0w, daph, pls endure`!! c baby?? im enduring t0gether with u, except that u still hv 2 m0re yrs t0 g0. " ah g0ng ar, pls b0-bi ur grand-daughter`!!" hais~ im damn FUCKING b0red. at h0me d0ing nth. i wana study, bt damn lazy la. my classmates are all preparing and studying yet im hre bl0gging n slacking`! WTF?! sumtyms i dun0 wt im d0ing. n0e wt im tinking n0w? im missing my baby. missing the day we went t0 k-b0x. baby, u faster book out la. we g0 sing sing again. =) sians sians sians`!!! later have t0 f0rce myself t0 study le. aArRrGgHh`!! i cnt wait t0 g0 out and enj0y like n0b0dy business~ wahaha~!! im insane i n0e~ jus let me b if n0t i dun0 hw l0ng cn i t0lerate all this b0red0m`! -__- lalalalala~ end hre le. tata~

wif ed

2006-10-26T02:28:00.000-07:00

s0 l0ng nv update. c0s bery lazy t0. =) well i had a w0nderful day with EDMUND, my baby? =D he is g0in in t0 army tml. misses him l0ads. and i embarrassed myself by crying in the public a number of tyms. d0ts. went t0 his hs ard 10+, he ordered mac delivery. =) had our breakfast le then he t0ok a nap n i played his c0m. lalala~ t0opit auditi0n sea, wanted t0 play yet it cnt w0rked. dun0 y~ pissed la. 1+ wakey ask him g0 bath n he can dilly dally till 2+. -__- prepare everything was kinda late le then we went t0 MARINA SQUARE. wanted t0 watch m0vie, bt n0t t0 our preference s0 we decided t0 g0 sing k. i really enj0yed singing wif him. we were like mad ppl, sing out hearts out. =) lalala~ =D sing till 6+ then went over t0 suntec n eat. nice f0od`!! im l0ving it. he say he wanted t0 tk ne0prints b4 he g0 in tml, if n0t b0tak n0t nice le. silly him. =) in e end we nv tk. slack ard at city hall there de cafe. hais~ was kinda sad, fr0m his expressi0n i can clearly c that he's reluctant t0 g0 t0 army. bt n0 ch0ice baby~ pls t0lerate f0r 2yrs. a smile hides a milli0n s0rr0ws. silent all the way, the pretendence was clearly seen, i gave out a silent cry in my heart up0n seeing him this way. hais~ th0u all al0ng he was smiling bt i n0e that he's sad. c he lidt i feel s0 heartpain. i cried. he was faking a smile n0t t0 make me w0rry. he c0mf0rted me and ask me n0t t0 cry s he'll b out s0on t0 c me again. n i cried again. i dun0 i cry st0p hw many tyms le. sigh~ t0ok train bac n he alight at aljunied mrt stati0n t0 meet his frens. he let g0 of my hands and give a peck on my f0rehead. tears dr0pped. seeing his backview drifting away fr0m me makes me burst out my tears. i hated t0 c him leave. bt i g0t n0 ch0ice i g0ta let g0 his hands. he said" dun be silly le, i oso n0t dying jus g0 in ma, will c0me out bery s0on t0 c u. dun w0rry." feel c0mf0rted. bt the feelings hating t0 c him leave really is pain. j0urney al0ne g0in h0me was s0 l0nely. i realised im missing him l0ads. rit n0w, im telling u baby, I MISS YOU.

baby~ =DD

2006-10-12T15:05:00.000-07:00

its been s0 l0ng since i blogged`! (: s0mething happened~ it st0p me fr0m bl0gging. dun ask me why. shall n0t bl0gged ab0ut what happened last week.

he's cute ya? (:
TM open plaza.

DDD=Dumb Dumb Dexter. bth him~ zilian~ lalala~ =D

HIM HIM HIM~!

my HAPPY FRUIT~! cute right`?! LOL~

meet my HAPPY FRUIT yesterday`! yeahs~ he's s0 damn cute can`?! LOL~ lalala~ meet DEXTER at TM. went ar0und walk walk and b0ught his m0ney clipper. its's nice`! (: then g0 eat le me pei him g0 d0wnt0wn and i meet up with my HAPPY FRUIT. =D he passed me ge0graphy b0ok f0r revisi0n. sweet right? heh. then we went t0 White Sand t0 walk walk. b0ught a keychain. damn cute. (: craps n m0re craps between us~ wahahaha`! we walk t0 d0wnt0wn and he t0ok a bus g0 h0me sleep. me g0 d0wnt0wn find DEXTER f0r awhile. paSsed him the keychain. lalala~ and me went h0me le. c0s.. MUM c0ok my fav0urite and ask me bac t0 have dinner with her and 0f c0s i went h0me na. ^_^ BLACK PEPPER CRAB and DEEP FRIED MAN TOU f0r dinner. yummy~

t0day at h0me study study. (: guai DAPH~ tata.

cnt get t0 slp

2006-10-07T01:58:00.000-07:00

1st of all; im damn pissed off with th0se c0nstructi0n w0rKers. early in the m0rning 7plus; they drill dun0 what and its s0 fucKing LOUD~!! wala0~ me cann0t even get t0 slp!! f0r 2 ann0ying days; they drill n0n-st0p`!! WTF~?! me waKey 7plus then cann0t get bac t0 sleep again. wh0le m0rning can you imagine that`!! sleepless m0rning and s0meh0w finally i managed t0 fall asleep f0r awhile. heng ar~ :)

yest went out study. went d0wnt0wn find DEXTER 1st. c0s JACKiE still having less0ns. on the way d0wn; JACKiE msg came. " eh ger; me finish sch0ol le. wan meet me wt tym?" i stunned~ LOL`! he tell me he n0t s0 fast end sch0ol; ard 11plus he say he cn g0 h0me le. tell him aftern0on then meet him. :DD meet le DEXTER; he pei me g0 eat. c0nsider bery l0ng then decided t0 eat what. LOL~ lalala~ then g0 bac t0 his zu0g0ng there play play. ard 2plus went over JACKiE'S place t0 study le.

MiSS`daphy

DEXY n DAPHY :DD

me again~ sweet sweet. :)

my study partner; JACKiE`! :D

g0 under his h0use there study. study ard 5 he wana watch "yu le bai fen bai". then went up his h0use watch. his mum c0oK s0up bery nice. i had a b0wl. hee. :D yeahhs. then after that we g0 d0wnstairs c0ntinue t0 study. bring his d0g "m0os0o" al0ng. sweet sweet. his d0g damn big n al0t of hair. :DD study till ar0und 7plus his fren cum. mummy called and tell me g0 eat c0s ah ma birthday. his fren drive me t0 800plus there. eat le then went h0me. :)

t0day(6/8/06)

t0day g0 out meet DEXTER again. :D wait f0r him finish zu0g0ng then meet me. ard 4plus meet him at TM. stroll ar0und TM and waited f0r his fren EUGENE. then meet le we g0 mac eat; slac; sm0Ke then walK ar0und. hahs. 7plus we g0 t0 201 find his frens again. ar0und 9plus me went h0me le. :) tml meeting NEL. tata~

..

2006-10-04T00:19:00.000-07:00

s0methings n0t right; really n0t right. i feel s0 empty n0w. why? f0r wt FUCK i feel this way??? damn~

maybe n0w i n0e e reas0n why...

pe0ple`!!!!
DAPH is lacK of CARE; LOVE and CONCERN`!!!
pleassseeeee LOVE; PAMPER; DOTE; CARE and CONCERN her MORE MORE MORE & MORE~!!! thx~

a sigh of relieve~
feeling much better. :)

day wif dexter

2006-10-03T02:48:00.000-07:00

nv g0 sch00l t0day. was at white sand library with dexter. :D meet him 11.30 at there. he pei me g0 study. :) then study awhile we went t0 d0wnt0wn eat B&J. my favs. ^^

dex: "D&D ice-cream n0t B&J"
daph: "d0ts la u. -_-" LOL~

greedy him`! :)

Dex&Daph

diff effect. (sephia)

t0ilet. d0ts. -__-

see the fishes? they are fat`!! OMG~ wahahah~!

lastly; blac n white. :)

ar0und 4 he went t0 zu0g0ng le. then me decide t0 g0 n find nel. never tel him i g0 his zu0g0ng there find him. wana surprised him. :) reached there; he really bery surprised. :D sweet of me. ^^
s0 b0red over there. but nj0yed the tym wif him.

sitting at e c0unter. b0red man~

see? hardw0rKing h0r. that's y m b0red.

h0rx~ caught him trying t0 g0 sm0Ke. :D

daph; daphy; daphne. :D

went bac ar0und 7plus. miSsx all of them. HUGS.

find nel

2006-10-01T15:14:00.000-07:00

was at h0me n0w. b0red. later have t0 study le. yesterday went over t0 nel w0rK place and find him. reached there was ab0ut 2 and it was raining heavily. d0ts la. called nel and in the end was Ken c0ming over t0 fetch me. c0s he was busy. nel asK him bring his sweater f0r me. LOL~ s0 sweet of nel. HUGS. reached there; saw nel n he saw me. we b0th were s0 ps. OMG~ then was liKe we Keep smiling dun0 f0r wt. mayb t0o shy. LOL~ but after awhile starting t0 chat le. :) i br0ught my b0oKs over there t0 study. hahas. i g0t study leh. but study awhile only. then g0 buy things eat with nel. wh0le day was liKe play; laugh; sm0Ke and study abit only. LOL~ Ken was cute. wahahah~ d0 all th0se stupid ting. was a fun day but t0o bad have to g0 h0me le. and btw; my happy fruit c0me bac safely t0day. L-MAO.

study tym. tata~

g0od day. ^^v

2006-09-29T23:49:00.000-07:00

my happy fruit; ahsen; g0 vacati0n le; n0b0dy entertain me. LOL~
quarrel wif nel again; but we're fine nw. :)

finally meet MRshen le. ^^v he went to my br0ther sch t0day. then after that meet me. :D go h0me bath and prepare finish is ar0und 2. then he still with my br0ther s0 i went to TM gia gia 1st. LOL~! saw many frens lehs. e 1st i saw was weixi0ng. he still e same; dt tall with the height of 185. sumwher ard there la and with that g0ng g0ng blur blur de face. L-MAO la. he with his fren and he cann0t rec0gnised me until i call him. t0opit right? -__- then chatted f0r awhile bef0re went t0 hwee's zu0g0ng de sh0p to find him. saw becs. went up e escalater and saw geng gai and ac0mpany. wahaha. then i went int0 hwee's sh0p and r0dric was there. g0t ppl acc0mpany me till MRshen cum. chatted and went sm with r0dric. LOL~ the 2 of them r fun n nice. :) and hwee give me a gift which is fr0m his sh0p. lalala~ a mini fan. sweet of him. thx thx. ^_^ MRshen change the venue to bed0K princess. shyt him~ d0ts la. left hwee's sh0p and went there find him. on the way he called; " wana watch m0vie ma?" then i say " ur treat huh? me anything." LOL~ lalala~ awhile later his msg cum. "15mins.. or u r late f0r e m0vie" t0opit.. me in bus; e driver oso n0t me h0w t0 faster? b0d0h~ wahaha`!! reach there and went t0 the theatre. watched " ROB-B-HOOD". very funny and t0uching m0vie. the starting was funny and i laugh n0n-st0p. then MRshen always disturb me. he's f0rever lidt la. cute`!:D t0wards the end; i cried. -__- the st0ry was really very t0uching and sad. and i use his shirt and wipe away my tears. LOL~!! then MRshen laugh at me. idi0t right? nvm; then he suddenly wiped my tears f0r me`!! scared da0 w0. LOL~ the m0vie end ard 6 then he went t0 meet his frens and me went to d0wnt0wn east meet dexter. when he n0e me meeting dexter he laugh. dun0 y evrything t0 him s0 funny. -_- he this guy oso weird la. then after that angry me. WTF?! he dun1 me t0 meet dexter and wan me to g0 h0me. d0ts la. but in the end still meet him. MRshen sent me t0 MRT stati0n and i went t0 find dexter le. on e way; msg lester. LOL~ MRshen; dexter and lester n0e each 0ther de h0r. dun play play. wahaha`! fun fun~ reached d0wnt0wn; called dexter and e 1st impressi0n he give me. "shy shy" L-MAO~!! went t0 mac and eat. damn hungry. chatted and he dun0 y s0ts s0ts de. always laugh t0 himself. he say c0s he cnt imagine that MRshen is my c0usin. t0opit.. ard 8 he g0 bac zu0g0ng and me went h0me le. yeahhs`!! nice and fun day especially wif MRshen. ^^ HUGS.

g0t nth m0re t0 say

2006-09-27T14:38:00.000-07:00

" i n0e u dun l0ve me anym0re n n0e that i shud really give up that tym was e day when i msg u; yet u dun even b0ther t0 reply 1 bac t0 me. and n0w; i t0ld myself; this guy can n0 l0nger be e one that u shud hang on f0r; m0ve on daph and let this guy go..." i'll learnt to let u go. -DAPH

i belived that evry0ne hv a special pers0n wh0 they l0ve e m0st. this special pers0n in your heart will never be replaced. and yes; this pers0n might n0t be wif you anym0re; or y0u hv f0und s0me1 that you l0ve n0w and you may m0ve on; he/she will always stand a place in your heart which n0 0ne can ever stand anym0re. n0w thx t0 y0u CHANG; im s0 afraid of falling in l0ve again. s0rry that i turned d0wn a few guys. im just n0t prepared f0r an0ther relati0nship yet. the feeling is s0 hurt. i n0e i shud m0ve on; but thinKing bac on h0w much all the pain that inflits on me jus made me st0p my steps t0 m0ve on. the accumulating hurts fr0m so many guys; i dun0 h0w t0 m0ve on anym0re. i wish to walK out of this obstacle and i really wish. im all al0ne facing all these. often im perturbed by nightmares that made me w0Ke up crying. i jus lac of the c0urage and right n0w im t00 weaK to step ahead of the others. the hurtings are simply t0o much; t0o pain. i can n0 l0nger taKe it; i find it suff0cating me. PEOPLE`!; its n0t that i stil l0ve CHANG; pls understand that it is really hard f0r me again. whenever im in a rs; i t0ld myself that this will be a better one. yet each time i try to c0mmit; i get m0re hurt. is this what i deserve? at e m0ment of tym; surr0unding seems to be so dim; i dun0 wher e light of my m0tivati0n had g0ne t0. im l0st. DAPH; its tym t0 put an end to all these. st0p letting them hurt you s if there are n0b0dy business. u r a ger; u ought to pr0tect urself fr0m all the hurts. shut urself fr0m their w0rld. i t0ld myself these and i cann0t t0lerate myself to see hurts occuring tym and again. i even t0ld myself n0t t0 cry over you CHANG. i did it; yet n0w i drip d0wn a tear n0t because of you; its because i can n0 l0nger 0pen myself t0 l0ve a pers0n s much n be in a rs again. its because im afraid that i'll hurt a party wh0 l0ves me but yet i cann0t l0ve them. tired of trying out a new rs; sic of all the sweetw0rds. nth last f0rever. h0w abt getting a guy fucKing you and just leave s if its n0t his business? h0w many upteen tym bef0re all these st0ps? i n0 l0nger see guys as angels; what i see n0w was all the evil and selfishness. i try hard to changed my opini0n of them; but n0thing seems to be d0ne anym0re. this tym; i really l0ve deeply and fall real hard. h0w will y0u guys ever feel? me? m i guys slaves? d0 i really have t0 degrade myself t0 that standard? im telling you; that isn't DAPH`! that isnt her`!! really thx to you CHANG; all thx to U... u ruined my life; ruined the trust i have f0r guys; ruined others chance t0 l0ve me. all because i trusted guys t0o much. n0w; i telling myself. DAPH; u've d0ne en0ugh f0r guys; its tym f0r them to at0ne f0r ur l0ve. its really en0ugh; letting myself envl0sed t0 my w0rld of my own; my w0nders; free fr0m desires. c0s daph's n0t g0na get hurt anym0re. g0 hurt guys instead of letting them d0 so. unfairness; i n0e. but im t0o s0ft-hearted. i feel so bad whenever i hurt s0me1. what guys wan fr0m me isn't that ez and simple at all. GOD; i swear i rather g0 ar0und hurting them instead of letting myself get hurt. e pain is far t0o excruciating f0r me. s0rry... i just cann0t bring myself t0 d0 that. let me Kill myself with that stab fr0m the Knife thru my heart. u will n0t see tears anym0re and what u'll see is the bl00d that fl0ws d0wn. the bl00d that is full of unbearable pain; excruciating hurt and th0se humiliati0n fr0m others. what has my life bec0ming t0? i f0rce myself n0t t0 b in a rs; yet what i did was that i had hurt an0ther inn0cent s0ul. s0rry. GOD; pls f0rgive me; erase my sins. finally; me understand what u mean by "u cann0t c0ntinue t0 l0ve me anym0re."

came blogg

2006-09-24T15:03:00.000-07:00

must c0me bl0g le; my aiai c0mplain le. :X well anyway chatted with my aiai online and on e f0n. s0 l0ng nv chat le. she also bery funny; laugh n0n-st0p. craps la us. :) chatted al0t ab0ut the past thingy. heh. shh.. secret. l0ve her la; find one day go find her chat chat wh0le day`! sure al0t CRAPS. ^^ nth much to bl0g these few days la. so just anyh0w; dun blame me then. hahas. prelims ended on friday. was happy yet sad. happy c0s me dun need stressed prelims; sad bc0s 'O' levels c0ming in ar0und 1 m0nth tym. STRESSED`! -__- these days were so guai. stay at h0me do n0thing but online la. wahaha`! c? stay at h0me bery lazy; dun even wana study. slap myself. lol`! OCS will b happy t0 c me slapping myself. but slap him 1st. ^^v c la; get influenced by th0se lazy pe0ple. study dun1 study; slac at h0me d0 n0thing. aArRgGhH`! nvm; m starting my revisi0n bery s0on. ^__^ this wh0le weeK me never go out yet leh. so guai~ LOL~ yesterday evening finally went out.`! yeahs. ^^v went over to TM meet wayne. but he's damn late`! ar0und then reached. due to s0mething cr0pped up. but heng glenn was at TM; then me go meet him 1st. lol~ BGSS glenn. lol`! me seems to have al0t of frens fr0m BGSS h0r`! or rather x-bf? hahs. chang was oso BGSS~ dun cr la; n0t my pr0blem anym0re. yeahhs`!! m free fr0m him`!! ^^ heard he g0na woo an0ther ger; LOL`! c0nfirm oso n0t l0ng de la. s0 flirt~ eeyer~!! let me list out s0me pe0ple fr0m BGSS. glenn; chang; ben; eric shen; Keith; lester; Kenji n my c0usin wanleng. lol~ f0rget still g0t hu le. c0ntinue my st0ry.. then meet glenn go sm0Ke and chat. he also an0ther crapper la. t0opit b0y. -__- then he pei me till wayne c0me. then this wayne also an0ther crapper. bery funny la they 2. maKe me laugh liKe crazy ger. sLap them`! wahaha`! meet wayne go eat. then go sm0Ke again. lung sp0il le la. :( slac awhile he pei me walK h0me. wahahha. dexter msg me; say wan meet me. -__- next tym la h0r; me g0ing h0me le. ^^ reach h0me c0me online chat again. lol. OCS again. LOL~ bery angry with nel leh. shyt. dun0 wts wr0ng with him these few days. damn~ alm0st 24 h0urs we nv chat le. -__- tmd~ nvm. f0rget it. L-ma0`! ^^v

tata~

out with c0usin t0day.

2006-09-21T02:14:00.000-07:00

meet c0usin t0day. ^^ happy happy. was able to buy s0mthings t0day. and all was jie buy f0r me. so sweet of her. :) she teng me l0ads neh. she lives in malaysia and c0me here t0 sh0p. yeahhs`! then t0day went sh0pping with her of c0s she b0ught things f0r me.

my red sh0es. :) yeah yeahs`!

finally; i g0t myself an0ther pair of sun shades. last time de was misplaced by him. n0t his fault c0s we went on the train. he put my glasses behind his jeans and s0meone bump onto him and guess what? my glasses slide and there it dr0p into the h0le of the MRT d0or. -___- hate that pers0n`! aArRgGhH`! that time he felt so guilty; but i t0ld him its aite; also n0t his fault ma. but heart pain na. MEMORiES; g0t reminded of him whenever im d0ing s0mething. but its over; so... let's f0rget ab0ut it. mm. g0t a similar one; but different c0l0ur shades. saw my shades BECS`? heh. yeahhs`! im happy but n0t yet satisfied. heh. still g0t t0ns of tins n0t buy yet. heng~ jie b0ught me these 2. thx`!!

life was s0 simple this weeK. after exams c0me h0me; sleep. ya; i n0e im so lazy. hahs. bt dun cr; let me lazy ba; after this weeK me g0na mug my studies everyday. and i mean it. so pe0ple; dun try to tempt me by ji0-ing me out PLEASE`! lol~ i have determinati0n. g0nna start planning my schedule le. wh0le of 0ctober NO GOiNG OUT EXCEPT STUDYiNG. this is my sign`!! ^_^ suffer this m0nth then enj0y. wahahah`!! h0pe he d0 well t0o. l0ve...

tata~

an0ther day

2006-09-19T17:33:00.000-07:00

these few days were bac h0me very early. after my paper can g0 h0me le. t0day reached h0me ar0und 10. dun0 what to do; online to occupy my free time. try n0t t0 thinK s0 much. was craving f0r s0mething to eat and i made cereals to fill my hungry st0mach. was missing him so much. there's n0 m0re tears t0 cry le. the feelings had numb. why is it he was all i can thinK ab0ut? why is it seems s0 hard to get 0ver him? i saw his name in msn everyday; i wish i had the c0urage to chat with him. the feeling sux. i wish i had the guts to walK away fr0m what we had; but i cnt. because i n0e he w0nt c0me after me and that is what hurts me the m0st. shiying must be swearing at me f0r all these stupidness. she c0mf0rts me; enc0urage me all that and in the end im bac to myself again. SORRY; dun mean it. sighs~

had a chat with dad just n0w. was terribly sad. there's actually s0 much things that im n0t aware of. my burden added. there are just s0mething that im n0t very c0nvenient to say all out here. SORRY. i just n0w m stressed. damn stressed. the surr0unding air is suff0cating me. i had my 'O's; family issues and even HiM to vex ab0ut. iNSANiTY`!! s0meb0dy help me~

m feeling better

2006-09-18T17:07:00.000-07:00

guess m feeling much better after these few days. tears fl0wing every n0w and then. but t0day i feel that im in the best state to blog again. there's so much thing that i wana say yet i dun0 where t0 start fr0m. special thx t0 my sweetheart-SHiYiNG. :) thx to al0t of my frens t0o. im d0ing my papers t0day. end up; the wh0le full-scap paper was his name; his name and his name. -________- did n0t submit the paper of c0urse. sigh~ im telling myself to be str0ng. yes; i g0na be str0ng even there's no him in my life n0w. im stil clinging on to that lil bit of h0pe.

my bl0g became wt n0w?! f0r an0nym0us t0 tag all th0se unecessary n0nsense? duh~ nvm. brainless~ -_____-

m still l0ving y0u..

ended

2006-09-14T23:56:00.000-07:00

let me jus end this entry with 1 sentence.

EVERTHiNG iS OVER BETWEEN ME AND DEAR.

its on the 10th day. exactly 1odays. e tym he asK me be his gal was 3 sept at 11plus. yesterday he br0Ke off; 13sept 11plus. ENDED. this st0ry has ended.

to DEAR: you n0 need owe me any explainati0n anym0re. i fully understand evrything. i let you go and i wont hang on to this rs that you wont want. you do the things you hv to do. use all the tym that u need. h0pe that there's a day y0u'll realise h0w much i l0ve you. love..

by e way; special thx to my SWEETHEART, u n0e hu u r na h0r? i l0ve you`!! with0ut u acc0mpany me; i will turn insane. only u n me n0e wt happen t0 me t0day; the crazy things i did. shh. dun say out. HUGS. ^^ we meet up s0on and we go sing. :) spare sumtym f0r me instead of BF huh? hahs.

prelims

2006-09-13T20:46:00.000-07:00

t0day had eng pp 1 n 2. sh0uld be quite alrit bah. ^^ finish paper ar0und 12 then g0 h0me sleep. msg DEAR wen i finish exams. he having science practical exams t0day. hahas. he t0ld me sure fail c0s dun0 h0w t0 d0. then anyh0w do. -_- went bac h0me t0 sleep while DEAR with his frens. he g0ing to Keith h0use t0 study. ar0und 5plus i waKey and msg DEAR. he already on the way g0 his h0use le. t0ld him i wanted to baKe cheesecaKe f0r him. ^^ heh. h0pe my DEAR was feeling better. he c0oK himself t0day. hahs. was w0ndering what he can c0oK... and i c0me t0 a c0nclusi0n that he only n0e h0w t0 c0oK instant n0odles and th0se which d0es n0t inv0lves much eff0rt. HE'S JUST THAT PLAiN LAZY. and that's my DEAR`!! -_- LOL~ that's why he needs a gf liKe me t0 c0oK and taKe care of all his needs. WAHAHAHA`~! yes`!! jus that lil bit BHB lahhs; i n0e. :D

miSsing DEAR s0 badly n0w. guess he is studying f0r tomorrow's paper. s0 guai~ muahx. ^_^ fast fast finish blog then also must go study le. tomorrow having SS and CHEM pp. -_______- i dread these subs.

GOOD LUCK t0 my DEAR and also myself f0r all the prelims papers`!!
of c0s n0t f0rgetting my FRENS`! ALL THE BEST~

tata~
HUGS DEAR.

DEAR sic; happy day.

2006-09-12T23:08:00.000-07:00

t0day sci prac prelim. hmm. see the situati0n; sh0uld be able to paSs lahhs. heh. after my practical exam; i went to meet DEAR. yeahhs~!! happy happy. ^^ th0ught DEAR was at h0me and i wanted to buy st0mach flu de med f0r him and buy him f0od bef0re go his h0use. and wanted to tcr of him. but when i call him he t0ld me he in clinic. so went to find DEAR.^^

p0or DEAR. he had st0mach flu then never go f0r eng pp t0day. :( sayang~ went to clinic to find him. he sat there blur blur de; so cute. wahahaha~! whenever i see him; i stil g0t th0se butterfly feeling in my st0mach and my heart still beats as fast. :) c0llect his medicine le then we went to the f0od c0urt to eat. DEAR had fish s0up and me never eat anythin. DEAR sicK; me go order f0r him. ^_^ so sweet of me. ^______^ we went bac to his h0use then he play his PS2. HENG~ t0day play never play CHAMPi0NSHiP MANAGER. wahahahas~! t0day de game seems interesting leh~ then DEAR oso play til beri gan ji0ng. :) DEAR's cat is abn0rmal t0day. LOL~! ahem~ then the s0und his cat pr0duce was s0 children lo. DEAR say she act cute. LOL`! after playing f0r awhile; DEAR tired le. then we go sleep. im lying on his sh0ulder. SWEET. ^^ was p0ndering so much tins. really feel so secure and xing fu when i lie on him. so many beautiful things and i Keep on smiling to myself. heh. by right i was planning to tidy up the r0om f0r him; his r0om so messy. in the end tired then sleep with DEAR. he also dun1 me to tidy up f0r him. WEiRDO~ heh. nvm; we SLEEP. DEAR hug me. GOSH~~ sweet`!! ^___^ feel love once again. sleep till evening tym then i go h0me le.
DEAR wana send me to the bus-st0p but i wan him to rest at h0me. somem0re we live s0 near t0 each other. on the way h0me DEAR msg me. his msges was s0 sweet`! happy happy`!! t0day was a happy day`!! :D

i LOVE DEAR; i LOVE DEAR; i LOVE DEAR beri beri much`!!! wahahaha.`

im HAPPY`!!!

LOVE...

in sch0ol

2006-09-11T14:51:00.000-07:00

right now im in sch0ol bl0gging away. there's quite a number of teachers not here today. yeahhs~! happy lahhs. n0 need study. but prelims are just around the corner in fact in a few days time. -_- im still here slacking all the way. that;s quite jia lat de le huh`?! but dun care la.. my fren t0ld me. prelims fail never mind. what m0st imp0rtant is your Olevels. hahas. mm.. agree agree. ^^ missing my DEAR so much. hais. he t0day having his prelims le. ALL THE BEST BABY~!! HUGS. what happen to my BABY`?!?? he changed le. like never teng me liao. feel no love from him lehs. hais. HOW HOW`?!?! his msges so cold, sobs. y?y?y? he seems to have al0t of things b0thering him. when i asked him; he told me he dun0 what happen also. just h0pe that he'll tell me evrything. im his gf; its like me anything also dun0. makes me a failure; i can't seems to know him or understand him. this is what makes me so sad la. I LOVE HIM; ILOVE HIM; I LOVE HIM lahhs. hurts me so much to c him this way. h0pe after his prelims he'll be better and mayb treats me a lil nicer like th0se days when we first started. ='(

tomorr0w is science practical exams le. damn~ sure fail. then next is my prelims. sigh~ this few days also m0odless. misses.

DEAR; i will always stay by your side; i pr0mise. =) love..

day wif c0usin

2006-09-10T22:50:00.000-07:00

shall start bl0gging fr0m yesterday.

9/9/06...
early in the m0rning was called by my sis t0 fetch my ind0 c0usin at ferry terminal. she arrived quite late; ar0und 2plus then reach sp0re. we pr0ceed t0 my mum's place and have lunch bef0re heading to AiN chalet. by right t0day sh0uld be g0ing t0 my AiN darling's birthday. i reached there; but me dun0 where it is; then call and asK them; then they also Kinda describe till i blur. sighs~ i walK ar0und and my feets are s0re. sadded~ veh du lans then dun1 go le. decide to go and find DEAR. called him; he was stil sleeping. p0or tin; he must have been veh tired. sayang dEAR. HUGS# then he answer the ph0ne.

me: "DEAR; wana meet me n0t? me n0t g0in my fren de chalet le."
DEAR: "why`?!"
me: "because me dun0 the place; summ0re my frens they all haben c0me ma."
DEAR: "orh; but i g0ing study with my sister leh."
me: "nvm na; me go pei you cos i really have n0thing to do."
DEAR: " orh; ha0 lo; then you cum find me." (cute aR DEAR? hee.)
me: jumping f0r j0y c0s by right t0day meeting DEAR; but he t0day n0t c0nvenient that's y cnt meet me. in the end meet me; of c0s happy lahhs. hee. ^^ LOVE DEAR~ HUGS#

cabbed d0wn t0 find DEAR; he t0ld me g0 find his 3rd sis at mac there. reach le then saw his 3rd sis. chatted f0r quite l0ng bef0re DEAR cum d0wn. sl0w la him~ LOL~!! ^_^ the m0ment DEAR saw me; he muahx me neh. so sweet CAN`?! wahahaha. yeahhs yeahhs~ :) then he study study; me at there play play. hee. DEAR; do you n0e that alth0ugh im just acc0mpanying you study; its really en0ugh f0r me le. being able to c u n hug u was really en0ugh le lo. its liKe jus let me watch u quietly was a c0mf0rt. really l0ve you. mei fen mei mia0 d0u zai si nian zhe ni. c0ntinue.. wait f0r Keith t0 c0me then we go have dinner. but me n0t eating. after that; DEAR send me bac h0me. r0mantic j0urney that i wished there'll never be an end to reach my h0use. evrytym he send me up the lift; its always so nan se nan fen. sighs~ DEAR go meet his br0thers..

10/9/06
today called up by my c0usin t0day. -_- was always being called up. t0opit. n0 ch0ice; t0day c0usin have to go m'sia t0 my an0ther c0usin there. so have to acc0mpany her go sh0pping t0day lo. was miSsing DEAR alot. he was sleeping again. guess he came h0me late yest night. never disturb him. sh0p till my legs are s0re. -_- evening tym DEAR msg me le. happy`!! muahx.

shall reply tags here.
to devil ger: ger; hahs. gd gd.. u stay tam me can meet u m0re often le. ^^ HUGS. been veh slac in study but will jia y0u. ^^
to angie: yeahhs; h0pe me n DEAR can stay s0 sweet. ^^ but u n0e; nth stays f0rever. sighS~

i realised that DEAR this few days weird weird de. dun0 what happen. he treat me c0ld c0ld. s0bs. in anyway i did wr0ng; DEAR pls tell me. DEAR n0 l0ngers call me. only msges. its been few days since he play his guitar and sang f0r me le. WHAT EXACTLY HAPPEN DAPH`?! DEAR stressed? or me tin t0o much? wana slap myself s0metyms. stupid brain dun0 tin what. i really tin of al0t of tins. tin DEAR dun1 me le huh; DEAR angry me ar; DEAR this DEAR that; scaRed this scared that. WTH DAPH; WHAT U DOiNG MAN~!! aArRrgGggHHh`!!!!! DEAR g0na Kill me f0r tinKing so much. because i really love DEAR.. scaRed lose him; yet at the same time dun1 stressed him. this is only place wher i can bl0g all my pr0blems. sighs~ DEAR's prelim starts tommor0w; maybe he's stressed ab0ut it. dun dare asK so much; scared he angry. me c DEAR lidt i also stressed leh. yesterday night stil had a bad dream that end up waKing up crying. -_- dream that DEAR breaK up with me. c; that's e results of thinKing t0o much. SLAP~!! i n0e its stupid. duh~ sighs~ miSsx him l0ads. n0w stil haben c0ntact me. cry man.~ but n0 matter what; stil l0ves him.. loads.... daph swear. :) DEAR; i never wana stressed u nor even wana c0ntrol u. jus h0pe u cr a lil m0re f0r me. LOVE.. daph.

FOREVER SHAWN YEO CHANG SHi. ^_^

an0ther day with DEAR ^^

2006-09-09T00:08:00.000-07:00

` yest nite was so sweet with DEAR messages. was Kinda t0uched and pr0ud of him. ^_^ he t0ld me that he quarrel with his mum dun0 bc0s of what. then he sh0uted bac to his mum and was rather guilty ab0ut it. i t0ld him t0 send her a message or g0 h0me and ap0l0gise to her. guess what? DEAR really g0 h0me immediately and ap0l0gised. :) my sweet BABY~ muahx. it was rather surprised that he w0uld do it. feel so happy ab0ut his acti0ns. i edited this while waiting f0r DEAR t0 be bac h0me.

t0day was out with DEAR; BEN; BEN'S GF(SHiYiNG); KEiTH and 1 guy( dun0 his name. :/ ) bef0re g0ing tam inter meet them; in the m0rning went t0 DEAR h0use 1st. then we chat; play etc. :) hahas. while waiting f0r me t0 reach his h0use; he play his PS2. WTH~?! he was playing t0opit game. CHAMPiONSHiP MANAGER. i n0e peanuts ab0ut it. BUT its really stupid alrit`?!! AarRRgHh~ BTH him; w0nder h0w he can play that game f0r h0urs. -_- me`?! gradually i fall asleep beside him. alth0ugh i was sleeping; i really can feel that he's tappin me to sleep; hugging me so sweetly. GOSH~ i feel so pampered and loved`!!! :) LOVE YOU BABY~!! i thinK after awhile he sleep beside me le. that pig was sn0ring so l0ud~ was awaKe by his sn0re. -_- but still managed to catch s0me nap. waKey ar0und 5plus. DEAR was late meeting them le. hahas. then we faster g0 find them and we g0 d0wn t0 t0wn t0 catch the m0vie "little man". bef0re we went to mac and eat and sumtin happen to me. suddenly wasn't feeling well and delayed everyb0dy's time. SORRY guys`!! :/ sighs~ DEAR was rather upset with me c0s im t0o stubb0rn t0 visit a d0ct0r. sadded. :( but feel c0mf0rted by DEAR. he sh0w me his care and c0ncern though he did n0t really sh0w out. then we went up to e theatre and it had already started. SUPER funny and nice`! must watch. heh~ due to restricted timing; i had t0 g0 h0me le. sadded. but nvm; tml meeting DEAR again. yeahhs`!! HUGS baby.

shall update tml~
tata~

LOViNG HiM m0re and m0re each day~

an0ther b0ring day. -_-

2006-09-07T18:26:00.000-07:00

` sighs~ its an0ther b0ring day ay h0me. was supp0sed t0 meet DEAR de. in the end was caught up at h0me jus because of dad. WTF~?! nvm. t0m0rr0w`!! t0m0rrow i shall meet DEAR for the wh0le day. ^^ as usual; DEAR was called up by his 3rd sis. go wher? to airp0rt f0r studying. when he called me in the aftern0on just n0w; he was so reluctant to go. and also damn piSsed by his 3rd sis. well; chatted with him and tell him the imp0rtance of studying evrytin. and i managed to c0nvinced DEAR to go and study hard as this w0uld be the last year. he so guai; dts my BABY`!! s'muahx. :) pr0mised him to study well also; so; i will h0n0ur my pr0mises and start mugging. yeahhs!! ^^ he hate studying and was so crazily over music; guitar etc. felt so happy for him that at least he has his g0als and n0e what he wants. the pr0blem with him is that he's SUPER lazy. -_- DEAR comp0ses his own lyrics and s0ngs. he often will play his guitar and sang s0ng over the ph0ne to me. its his own s0ng that he comp0se. quite nice. so sweet of him. ^^ HUGS DEAR#

and n0w DEAR is studying in the airp0rt while im here blogging away. h0pe time paSsed faSter and i'll be able to meet him s0on. 2 days never meet up with my BABY le. :( really miSsed him l0ads.

LOVE DEAR ETERNiTY.
HUGS#

DAPHNElovesSHAWN. ("v")

2006-09-06T23:15:00.000-07:00

`miSsing DEAR~ t0day wh0le day stay at h0me. s0 guai~ DEAR was out t0 airp0rt t0 study again. unbelievable`! but that was f0r sure. LOL~ my ger br0ught up an iSsue abt my DEAR and her bf de ex. br0wse thru his ex de bl0g; was quite sad lahhs. :( saw her entry abt h0w DEAR and her was. t0opit ger. SLAP her# but of c0s i w0nt let her affect me and DEAR de. c0s its her n DEAR de past. dun care so much; what's m0re imp0rtant is me and DEAR de present and future. ^^ saw that my dear ger; jo? LOL~

will be out to town tomorrow to c li0n dance competiti0n. yeahhs.`!! or maybe meeting DEAR. fcuKing miSsx DEAR s0o much. he's liKe an angel sh0wering me all his care and c0ncern. a really sweet b0yfriend. though we are just together f0r a few days; he was really sweet`! h0pe he dun do anythin bad to me. had a small tiff yesterday nyte. he had a character whereby he is Kinda quiet/shy. but me dun0; then whenever we b0th are quiet; i was w0ndering what came acr0ss his mind and i'll Keep guessing. i t0t we had n0thing to say t0 each other that's y he's s0 quiet. then was sad lahhs. :( small quarrel ab0ut these then he msg me this. " oK.. i pr0mised.. s0rry too. when i quiet is n0t because u n0t g0od enough f0r me.. is im happy.. i jus dun0 h0w to say out. dun anyh0w tinK oK? g0t things i wan you to say out.. then we can w0rK things out t0gether. oK? i cnt pr0mised anything in the future t0o. but im telling you n0w; you have my love. and that's sumthing n0t many can have. treasure it and i'll treasure you.. i l0ve you." GOSH~ its s0 sweet isn't it`?! LOL~ my heart was so happy then. ^^

may our LOVE bl0ss0m into a tree that stays f0rever.
BABYshawn BABYdaphne

tata~

2006-09-06T03:05:00.000-07:00

DAPHY & SHAWNZY.

that's e sweetest smile i ever seen on his face. hahas. went airp0rt t0 study with DEAR; his 3rd sis and his fren. ^^ OMG~ s0 guai. heh. end up nv really study. only t00K pictures. LOVE him. :)

my DEAR is really studying aite`?!

feel so sweet with DEAR ar0und. always feel so c0mfy wen he's ar0und. ^^ w0rds jus cannot describe e affecti0ns i feel lAhhs. ^^

tata~

miSsing him.

2006-09-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

was called t0 w0rK at exp0 yesterday. reached h0me around 12plus. s0 tired can`?! t0day g0 RSAF with my classmates. RSAF open h0use. LOL~ quite fun seeing all the planes th0ugh they are n0isy. heh. ^^

sighs~ t0day wh0le day never msg me`! only msg me 1 or 2 then nv msg le. WTH~ sad lah of c0s. he's online right n0w; but i dun dare t0 chat with him. :( GOD`! STOP me fr0m miSsing him. really miSsed e day went out with him neh. t0o bad. suan le na. n0 m0od~

tata~

day with weixi0ng ^^

2006-09-01T01:34:00.000-07:00

t0day rain e wh0le day ya`? t0opit. i was drenched. let's cut off all these n0nsense and blog my pr0gramme f0r t0day. LOL. ^^

meet that t0opit b0y WEiXiONG. hahs. :) received his msg wen i g0t h0me. s0 sweet nahhs. LOL`!! he sian; i sian.. den h0w?? den we meet lahhs. haha. that t0opit b0y want meet me at marina square watch m0vie. anyway its his treat den oK lahhs me anytin den go meet him. wahahahas. :x asK me go alone all the way der. duh~ dun1 dun1 of c0s. he b0 bian den meet me at PP; near his hs ma. eng xiu him; g0 der lo. heh`! cabbed der c0s its raining so heavily. sighs~

saw him; cute lahhs him. LOL~ t0oK train t0 MS. ^^ reached le den GV "n0 m0vie" we can watch. n0e y`?? c0s that t0opit b0y this dun1 watch that dun1 watch; if n0t is R21; or e tym n0t match. sigh~ end up never watch. nvm; we 2 s0 b0 lia0 go stroll around MS f0r m0re den 5 tyms. wa~ will go crazy. i swear i'll st0p steppin into MS f0r 1 wh0le m0nth. LOL`!

n0w; let e pics do e talKing ba. ^^

outside MS f0r "lung exercise". LOL~ l0vin explanade`!

saw what he d0ing with my clutch bag`?? t0opit b0y; anyh0w open my bag.

his cigg and hp. ^^

i t0oK his f0n and he t0oK mine and sh00t this`!! WTH~ but its quite nice lehs. LOL~!

me;me; me`!! :)

had dinner at e f0od c0urt. hahs. he shy; dun1 let me sh00t him. wahahahs. ^^

after that we stroll all e way to e end of e path of esplanade and rest. saw e bridge`?! s0o beautiful ya?? heh.

ard 10plus i g0 le; c0s he meeting his frens. j0urney bac was so l0nely. e best tin is my f0n was flat. duh~ nj0yed t0day though we bicKer. ^^ h0pe t0 meet ya s0on. :)

nyte nyte frens. tata..

my 1st entry; m0ody~

2006-08-30T16:38:00.000-07:00

changed my URL; so th0se unnecessary ppl w0nt cum n di siao sia0. frens been rushing me to update; nahh.. UPDATE le`! saw dt?? sigh~ been veh m0ody these days. i should be happy; but y m i sighing here`?! WTF lahs. dun0 what's wr0ng with me also. somehow i feel that heaven has been veh graci0us t0 me le. its my ownself; dun0 tin tin tin so much f0r wt`! du lans~ somebody save me fr0m this sea of ag0ny. i can't even c0ncentrate well in class. e feeling really sux.

im missing these guys n0w. MRshen; JJ; shawn; weixi0ng; xinwei. OK`!! i noe im crazy. duh~ n0e what im tinKin of wen i tot of dem`? im w0ndering what tym/when will dey c0ntact me asKing me to go out. its stupd lahhs; i n0e`!!but my life n0w was n0b0dy except these guys here. h0nestly; what revolves my life is my guys frens. as a sagittarian; my life was FREEDOM. dun try t0 st0p me fr0m what i wana do.

i wana get you out of my mind`! if i carry on thinKing of u; im e 1 who will be jumping down 100 storeys of building. carry on ur life with her and STOP contacting me le. pls`!! finally i deluded myself that you r n0 l0nger imp0rtant to me then here you cum mess up my life and say all th0se sweet tins to me again. WTH~ en0ugh le h0r. OUT YOU GO. fan aR`!! sighs~

my prelims r c0ming soon. HEADACHE~ haben study. die lahhs. pr0mised myself t0 study hard hard. mm`! yes`! i will`!! DAPH ar; Olvls`!! oKoK; heard that.... duh~ AND e best tin is... evrytym my mum c me; she'll say " Olvls aR`!! " she'll Keep repeating n repeating de lehs. OMG~ OMG~ will crazy de. i'll study MUM`!! sighs~

tata frens`! ^^